Love & Respect

Do you ever feel like you've been building, growing and making steps toward who you want to be and then life just slaps you with circumstances that cause you to stumble, doubt and debate whether you can push through?

I've felt like that over the last 6 months or so. I felt like I'd take a step in the right direction then get knocked back two steps...constantly pushing, striving and seeking after who I want to be.  I'm so thankful my eyes have been opened to see areas of my life where I can improve.  I can't take credit, though. God has created some awesome opportunities for learning.

Adam and I are part of a marriage group at church who is reading and discussing together the book Love & Respect.  I'm telling you...this book can truly change your marriage. I've read it once and am now going through it again.  I forgot some of the most important lessons about our needs as women and men. I admit, I know quite a few unhappily married couples. It's depressing. I desperately don't want to be unhappily married for any length of time.  Thankfully, Adam is the same way. I think that's why I continually evaluate where I'm at and how I'm doing at the goals I set for myself in respect to being a better wife. Adam does the same. Fortunately we both are seeking after the same things: peace, joy, happiness and most importantly, one more small way we can glorify God. In order to accomplish those items, we recognize the need for individual growth.  I pray diligently that we don't lose that drive.

In taking a new job in February, I've been riding the learning curve. It's been hard at times...particularly because I hold myself to such a high standard. I'm a perfectionist...anything less than perfect is failure.  I'm trying to reteach my mind, but that is certainly difficult when you're wired a certain way.

I think I'll blog next time about my "High B" personality...which is identified through Predictive Index (PI).  It's a tool we use for work, but if you read this blog and read about High B's...you'll completely understand me.  I'll try to remember that for the next time.

Now, I'm going to eat my lunch.  I have limited personal time this evening. When that happens, if I don't process my feelings...I start to disengage. So it was important for me to process some feelings during my lunch hour...onto food. Yum!