Miracles

Do you ever sit back and think "how does God do it". Really.

When you experience a miracle in life, it's pretty overwhelming right?

It's no secret Adam and I are dealing with fertility issues. I always know I'm human when I have that internal battle of selfishly wanting to start my own family vs my servant's heart of wanting to share in the joy others experience once they are pregnant. (Thankfully I don't have to do this on my own!)

But that glimpse of selfishness only lasts a short time. The truth is, when I witness miracles, such as pregnancy, how can I choose to keep playing the victim? Just because it isn't my miracle doesn't make it less important, magnificent, powerful...

I have a friend pregnant with her first child. A little boy!

Unfortunately, she and her husband had to have help with IVF (In Vitro Fertilization) in order to get pregnant. But the truth is, medicine only goes so far. Let's face it. Medicine can explain a lot of things, but it isn't 100% fool proof. Heck, if it were, there would be 100% of pregnancies for all who use IVF. And that percentage is lower than you would even imagine! (under 50%!) A bigger hand is, no must be involved...

So all of that is to say, I'm overwhelmed. Each time I learn of a pregnancy, have a loved one working through some fertility treatments and end up pregnant or simply even see a stranger with a baby bump... yes, it stings. I'm hopeful at some point it won't always sting. BUT just in the same breath I will praise Him. Because the truth is I don't understand. I don't know how He does it. But the miracle of that little one is certainly a beautiful thing. And how could I not fall down in awe?