Excited and Anxious

I’m on the countdown. We’ll be on vacation in 16 days (Glory, Glory!) and I can’t wait. We’ve all been there, right? Planning, gearing up, getting excited for an upcoming vacation. Here are a few things I’m excited about:

Roadtripping, napping in the car, games with friends, good food, sunshine, peace, laughter, Jones the Boxer dog, seeing a pregnant friend (yay!), exploring part of one of my favorite states, water activities, the beach, cruising, good food, toes in the sand, God’s creation, swimsuits and suntans, sunsets, great food, reading (What?! If you know me, I rarely enjoy reading for pleasure.), fruity frozen drinks, sunrises, stamping my passport, feeling drained by the sun at the end of the day, seafood, experiencing a new country, growing my bond with my girlfriends, seeing community the way God intended it to be, GREAT FOOD, seeing my husband with his closest friends, walking the beach, feeling the warmth of the sun… the list could go on.

Obviously, I’m looking forward to a lot. I think about this and wonder, am I creating too much hype? Am I setting some subconscious and unrealistic expectations? Then I try to justify it and say, no, not really. Because a lot of my excitement revolves around quality time with friends, good food and relaxation in a warm and sunny place, far away from home.  I am pretty sure all of those things are going to be met on this trip.

What I know about myself is that I think about all of this. And I’m guessing some of my friends might be thinking about these things too. The difference is that most of them probably keep it in. The whole point of this blog was to provide an avenue for me to ‘verbally process’ my thoughts as that’s how I operate. So I’m not ashamed to use this tool to help me process my excitement.

In the midst of it all, I’ve realized I really need this vacation. I need this vacation because it’s going to force me to be disconnected. I’ll admit. I’m a bit anxious about that. I can’t tell you the last time I was 100% disconnected. But I think I really need a break from everything. Things aren’t bad. I’m truly blessed. But I need time to reconnect with God, reconnect with my hubster and close friends. And I intend on doing just that.

I’m excited about blogging about our trip, when it is over.  But in the meantime, I will be excited…and I will live in the moment through our vacation, soaking up every ounce of life…and sun. J